Taking a Step Back
by Tiffany Kennedy
I’ve realised that being away has caused a stop in my blog posts, and that you guys don’t really know what I’m up to, so to get back into blogging again, I thought I’d give you a little bit of a life update, even if it ends up being a bit of a ramble.
Okay, so I know I’ve been away for a while, due to exams and just a terribly busy schedule, which has meant that my blog posts have become infrequent or just haven’t been happening at all. As exam season comes to an end the stress of it will soon be over, I’m trying to get back into the habit of blogging because I honestly do love this, and I love the audience I have. Exams can be tough on everyone, it doesn’t matter if you have one exam to do or five, either way they can be rather stressful. Some people don’t experience the stress as much as others, which is usually me, I’m usually rather relaxed about the exam itself, and I stress out about whether I study or not, or what’s going to happen afterwards. I’ve tried to create a schedule for myself to stick to, but I’m going to be honest, that’s not happening. As I’m in my final year of high school, I’ve completed my mock exams and my WACE exams are coming up ahead. For those who don’t live in Western Australia, or any part of Australia, I basically had practice exams which counted towards my semester, and now I have to take entry exams for uni. My number one worry is that I won’t get into uni. I know that all of my practice exams and semester exams had lead to decent results which is above what I need to get into uni, but I still stress out about it, which isn’t that great. It really doesn’t matter how much or how little I study, that’s always going to be the thing that is stuck in the back of my head.
There are a few things I wish I had done more of through out the year. Reading ahead is important, and I know when I did do that for my classes, I understood that area of the subject more, but I didn’t always have the time to do that. I really wish that I did more of that, but that’s okay, I’ve learnt what I’ve learnt and I just have to work with it now, there’s no use in trying to re-teach the subject to myself in a short amount of time. I wish I had spent more time on some of the subjects I was struggling in, but this year I’ve done significantly better than last year overall and I haven’t failed anything. I wish I had forced myself to keep to a specific schedule in order to have furthered my learning a little bit more to increase my scores, but the scores I am getting are from my knowledge and ability, I just know that they could be higher if I tried harder, but that’s okay. I spend too much thinking about a subject, or thinking about how I could do certain things to succeed in a subject rather than actually applying myself. I think at this stage I’ve just accepted what has occurred and I’m just preparing for the exam.
I guess the reason I’m writing all of this about my exams is just so that other people who are going through exams right now, have someone else that’s kind of on the same page. I know that people learn at different levels, and I know that some people would’ve studied enough, while others will think they haven’t studied enough, either way it’s okay. I just want anyone who is going through a tough time with exams or school or study to just know it’s okay. I know that if I mess up my exams or something like that, then there are other ways to get to where I want to be. To be honest, I’m not really the kind of person who will actively study, and I’m lucky enough to be able to retain enough information for each exam that I have to do.
Other than exams, I’ve been doing crazy things. I jumped back into youtube, which I had abandoned for a while, but I’ve been posting videos for over 5 weeks, straight, which is kind of a record for me, because I’m actually rather inconsistent (oops). I went to a fashion show a while back which I documented on both video and in post format. I went to Tyler Oakley’s tour, which was also documented by video, and I’ve been able to go to various youtube meet ups recently which has been amazing. While still going to school, I’ve been working a fair bit, and I’ve been doing a few short films recently. Acting is something that I didn’t have much time for this year, whereas last year, it was something I was actively doing.
There has been a whole mixture of things going on, and I’m just waiting for things to slow down a little bit. As much as I like to keep myself busy, because I don’t like wasting my time, I’m looking forward to taking things slowly. I’ll be able to write more blog posts that are better thought out, with more detail, and I’ll also be able to create more videos. Creative content is definitely something I want to continue. I’ll be able to go for a run more often and go swimming each weekend. Things like this feel really relaxing to me, they just feel like comfortable things to me. This year has, and continues to be a crazy whirlwind, and though I haven’t had this blog for that long, I still take it rather seriously as I like producing good content. I hope I’ll be able to consistently post each week and I guess we’ll just see how that goes. I’ve also made a few changes to this blog, considering its layout, and I hope it makes it easier for some of you to find things, as well as more appealing.
I also want to make a special mention to the blog The Perfect Storm who nominated me for the Leibster Award. Thank you guys so much! You have an amazing blog, but I’ve been so busy that I wasn’t able to participate in this award. However I’ve participated in this award before which you can see here.